that rosebud girl

stupid rain.

rain, rain, go away….please???

so i continue to be plagued by rain. and?Ǭ†i can’t shake the can-i-have-an-uneventful-game-please? curse, either. buddy and i went to cover the state soccer championship…when lightning was spotted in the distance. luckily, it was halftime anyway, so we had a break, but the delay went on for an hour. then, just as they throw both teams back on the field to restart the game, the officials see lightning again. so they can the game and say it’ll be resumed on tuesday. geez. at least we weren’t there until 11 p.m. (like the rain-delay lacrosse game). but at this rate, state tourney season will never end….

i am still very tired. softball went okay this morning, no traffic and just an intermittent drizzle. nothing like the downpour at the soccer game (thank goodness for umbrellas).

speaking of soccer, it appears my team might not be able to play tomorrow…which wouldn’t bode very well for me….

i read a story in our paper today that said we’ve only had two days of sunshine in the entire month of may. two freakin’ days. this is just downright ridiculous.

a good movie.

i finally saw bend it like beckham last night, with rachana and mike. i loved it. totally cute movie. all that soccer made me want to go and play again. of course, there were a few stereotypes and the moms in the movie pissed me off because they were so girly, but i guess without those typecast characters there would be no inherent drama. or a movie. that whole going-out-with-your-coach thing was kinda sketchy, too. when i was a senior in high school, we found out our coach (who was like, 25)?was dating one of our juniors.?it was messy.?

but overall, i really liked the movie. i’m glad i finally got to see it and that i finally went to a movie theater — it’s been a long time. takes me back to those days when friends and i went to a movie a week in LA. now i have people to watch movies with (at least for the summer).

i also discovered a cool little asian restaurant in wilmington. yay. little pricey, but good noodles. thanks to rachana for bugging me to find a thai restaurant before going to the movie. it was quite an ordeal to find (me and one-way streets do not mix), but the food was worth it.

now i need to leave for a softball game and fight through traffic. nascar is in town, down in dover, and getting anywhere south of the canal is going to be a bitch. ugh. so now i have to try and find an alternate route. or something.

only two more days of state tournaments remaining. thank goodness. unfortunately, the lpga championship is around the corner….*sigh*

feel like … zzzzzz

tired, tired, tired. i don’t know why i’m flagging so badly. i had to cover a baseball semifinal today and nearly fell asleep during the game. i was all narcoleptic and stuff. it must be something going around — everyone in the office was all tired today too. weird.

now, i’m too tired to keep typing. *sigh* maybe i need to get exercising again to get more energy. it’s only going to get worse for work the next couple of weeks….

oh, the places you’ll go …

don’t worry yourself by thinking of the places you want to be and how to get there. make the most of where you are now — you might find you actually like it there.

the words are true. really. ed and i had that recurring conversation about trying to move back to LA. i know he’s homesick. and i know he’s tried to like it here. but…we keep having this conversation. it’s almost inevitable that we’ll leave. i like it here. i’ve made lots of friends. we’ve approached living here in totally different ways. he likes his friends in LA just fine. me? sometimes i miss my friends, but there are lots of people i’d rather not run into in LA. *sigh*

ed said, “thank you for allowing me to find this out about myself.” finding out he was a west coast person, not an east coast person, that is.

touching, isn’t it? but where does that leave me now?

i’ll cross that bridge when i get there.

quickie summary of my day so far — good: will see a movie tonight. bad: supposed to be off, but need to pop into to work to do a quick story.

youppi!

yay! i finally got my stuffed youppi!, courtesy of ed…

nothing else going on right now. just a cloudy memorial day. i’m going to enjoy the rest of my (rare) day off….

all’s well that ends well …

for some reason, i am having trouble sleeping. it’s past 3 a.m., for crying out loud. i tried to go to bed at 1 a.m., but then decided i was going to check the mailbox…yes, i drove the 100 yards or so to the mailbox…then parked the car in the garage…and then couldn’t go back to sleep. i think i’m an insomniac. beats the hell out of me.

anyhow, mike and rachana came over for dinner. that was cool. made a bunch of pasta-ish things, some roasted portabello mushrooms. good stuff. lots of leftovers, too, which means i finally have food in the house.

i also spent some time talking to my brother on msn. i am still tripping out over the fact my parents have internet on guam. gets me thinking that my brother is lucky. he’s getting a lot of chances that i never had. he gets to hang out with his friends at the tender age of 13! i was lucky if i could leave the house and hang out with friends when i was a senior in high school! he gets to play sports, gets to putter around the internet, gets to do a lot of the things i fought over with my mom when i was growing up. *sigh*

i guess i can’t really call it unfair, though that’s what i’ve been saying about my brother’s life since he was born. always got more stuff than me, more attention, more spoiled than me…etc. i was the typical jealous older sister. but i guess what people say about having more than one child is true: the younger children always get treated way differently from the oldest child. if the first child was raised strict, parents loosen up on the second child. i belong in that category. ed does too (he’s the second child). he used to talk about how his sister resented a lot of the things he was allowed to do and about she always harbored a smidgen of resentment toward their parents. i feel almost the same way as her. i suppose my upbringing has a lot to do with the kind of relationship i have with my immediate family. you know, civil, but definitely unable to stay under their roof for more than one week.

but still, i guess i turned out alright. i didn’t fly off the handle completely when i left guam. flew off of it somewhat, but i’m not in jail or anything. i have a career. i’m doing okay. and my brother is doing okay too. he’s smart, has straight-a’s, and is probably less of a pain in the ass than i was growing up. so my parents didn’t screw up either. different upbringing, two kids who aren’t flipping out. sure, we’re totally different personalities — he’s so shy and non-combatitive and non-confrontational and good at going with the flow, i’m loud and talkative and sarcastic and downright inconsiderate at times — but i think mom and dad are proud of us and the way we turned out. my brother has a long way to go, but i think he’ll be fine too. maybe more successful and richer than me, though. after all, the smart gene (and the book smarts and math and science smarts) apparently skipped me and went to him. so maybe he’ll become an engineer and give his poor journalist sister money in 10 years. hahaha.

i am plagued by rain!

wah…look at all the rain nearby. it’s gonna be a wet holiday. i forget what the sun looks like…

one of those grrrr days.

where is the sun? i need sunshine! all this crappy weather is making me achy. (sad to say, but i think i have arthritis or something. i’m 23 in an 80-year-old’s body!)

to make matters worse, my feet hurt from standing up for five freakin’ hours last night. stupid soccer doubleheader. (well, at least they were both really good games. but deadline sucked.)

there are about fifteen million things i have to do in the next three hours, and i’m too lazy to do any of it:

1. laundry is still sitting in my washing machine. ew. wet and soggy. still gotta dry it and eventually fold it….
2. house needs cleaning. still messy. i guess people won’t care it’s a mess though…
3. cat litter needs to be changed…ew….that’s what i get for having a cat…but she’s so cute!
4. lots of dishes need to be washed.
5. lawn is overgrown in the back of my house, but it’s cold and cloudy and probably gonna rain, so i can’t do anything about it.
6. i need to change a lightbulb outside.
7. i am hungry. need food.
8. very sneezy. need tissue. just ran out. grrrr….
9. need to get out of raggedy house clothes.

i am pretty bitchy today. i guess it’s because i woke up at noon. grrr…stupid weather….making me sleepy. but on a better note….i actually have a day off. *gasp* i suppose i should enjoy it. rachana is supposed to come by later and we’re going to make dinner or something. (hence, the reason i have to clean my house.) i think mark and michele are coming later, too, around 7:30, so that’s cool. (they don’t care if my house is messy. )

right now, i’m talking to ed on AIM. yes, i’m procrastinating. ed is in montreal right now, coming back tomorrow. he says he has some sort of present for me. i hope it has something to do with youppi! (the orange furry mascot of the montreal expos). i’ve wanted a stuffed youppi! for the longest time. or a bobblehead youppi! i want to put him next to my phillie phanatic and my mr. celery bobbleheads. i know, i?have an unhealthy obsession with mascots.

on that note, i should probably make myself productive. *sigh*

out on the town.

last night was fun, fun, fun! i hit up some clubs in philly (which i haven’t done in the two freakin’ years i’ve lived out here) with rachana, murali and mike…and murali’s friend danny, this really nice guy. we started out in a hip-hop club, which was cool except for the fact i probably looked like a jackass dancing compared to all those other black people who knew how to groove. as pete and i would say, “it’s times like that i wish i was black.” but it was all good. we moved on to this salsa place, but murali and i can’t salsa to save our lives, so dragged everyone else out of there after about half an hour. we hit up another club, where we saw a fight at 1:30 a.m. two guys punking on each other and getting dragged out of the club kicking and squirming by some burly-looking security guards. crazy stuff. i didn’t get home until 2:30 and had trouble getting to sleep — this always happens whenever i go drinking!

so now i’m still a little tired. today is actually the earliest i’ve woken up in the last week (of course, i don’t consider 10:30 early, but whatever). i actually lucked out today because of the heavy rain we got last night…i was supposed to do four games today…softball at 11am, baseball at 2pm, a soccer doubleheader that started at 6. but softball and baseball got washed out. a good thing because i probably would have overslept by accident. or looked dead tired and not paid attention at the games and gotten knocked unconcsious by a foul ball or something. ha.

on that note, i gotta start cleaning the house. i’m supposed to have people here tomorrow and it looks like a freakin’ sty. and i have mad laundry to take care of — i think i have clothes that have been sitting in the washing machine for the last 12 hours….

flashback …

taking a stroll down memory lane
thoughts borne from that familiar refrain
that laughter, those tears, that joy, that pain
all flooding back to me time and again.

funny how music brings back a lot of memories. michele and i met about the a cappella group last night and were mostly playing songs to get a feel of what kind of stuff we wanted to arrange and sing and put together. i’d brought a bunch of my old sirens and socal vocal cd’s and popped ‘em in — and immediately felt like i was a freshman/sophomore again. what a trip. i thought of people i hadn’t thought of in a long time! whooo. crazy stuff.

anyhow, it’ll probably take a while to get all this stuff off the ground, but it sounds like fun.

today is very cloudy and blah again. it’s making me tired. i went to sleep at midnight last night and didn’t get out of bed until 11:30 a.m.! sucks how i’ve wasted 12 hours of my day! no time to work out. must go to work and lacrosse championship. wah. it’s not raining yet, but i’m sure it’ll pour later. and i will have to bring my umbrella again.

speaking of lacrosse, i got a nasty e-mail from a reader yesterday basically telling me i didn’t know how to get my facts straight. yeah, i did make one mistake in my story from wednesday (which i subsequently made a correction for), but not as many as this person was insisting. i don’t mind when people tell you nicely that there’s a mistake in your story. i mean, i’m human. i make mistakes. but you don’t have to be snide about it. i have feelings, too!!!! *sigh*

tonight i’m supposed to go out to philly with rachana and murali, another one of the (rare) twenty-somethings that works on the city desk. sounds like fun. haven’t had a good drinking/dancing outing since basketball season.

on that note, i should probably eat lunch. don’t want to drink on an empty stomach, after all….

mood: tired. so very tired. where’s the sunshine?