that rosebud girl

random thoughts …

i’ve been trying to call my parents the last couple of days and had no luck whatsoever. it was weird. solid busy signal all the way. so i finally looked at the Pacific Daily News to see what was going on and it turned out there was an islandwide telephone outage. that’s just wacky. hopefully i can get a hold of them today. i want to tell them about the car. and a bunch of other stuff.

tick, tick, tick….

saturday is almost here….hurry up already…..time is ticking away very, very slowly. of course, i have to go through 9 a.m. soccer practice (ouch) and a ballet class observation first…..but then the car….i want my car NOW.

i am so tired….so much to do…..and the wedding productivity has ground to a halt. oh well. i have other fish to fry.

i need cash….there are all these part-time opportunities for me, but they’re being held up. the Y has yet to officially hire me, and something cropped up at UD where i can help design media guides….but pete is first in line for that job. i hope he turns it down. i could use the extra cash. sheesh. i already have some high-stakes football bets down for this weekend…..i could use that cash too….

before i know it, it’ll be november and i’ll probably be screwed. holy crap.

nothing like a new car to make things better…..

new wheels!

saturday is the day. new car, here i come.

i can’t wait. i got everything i wanted (and more). an LX Santa Fe. all-wheel drive. heated seats. (woohoo….the part i’m looking forward to the most.) BRAND NEW WHEELS. this is sweet.

now, if only the clock would move a little faster…..

there’s a wedding coming up?

crap.

32 days until the wedding….and i am in that alternate freaking-out/cool-as-a-cucumber mode. i feel strangely calm sometimes. i know time is running short. it makes me kind of crazy. at the same time though, i cling to this belief that everything will get done. i guess that is the way my life has always operated: somehow everything gets done. people don’t always agree with the attitude or the methods, but it gets done. and you can’t argue with results.

ed and i had lunch with elisa and matt on saturday….harry’s seafood grill…..can i just say the entire harry’s franchise (okay, so it’s really just two restaurants) kicks ass? my oysters were fabulous. i want to go back and eat there again….when i have money. but elisa and matt were talking about how crazy the last week was before their wedding. somehow, i envision the craziness, but not the headaches. i guess that’s just me. it’s all about being a one-woman show. do it yourself so no third party screws it up. i’m looking forward to this. i’m bossy. i used to be a stage manager. i used to be a director. so now i get to run rehearsal and run the show. it’s like any other show i’ve ever worked. and i don’t think there will be a lot of problems. this will be fun.

but 32 days…..insane…..and i think i’ve stretched myself perilously thin as it is…..i knew the fall would be insane, but this is just ridiculous…..

note to self: i am not superwoman. not all the time. there is such thing as having a docket that’s too full.

on a happier note, i will get myself a new car. woohoo. my parents are the greatest parents in the world (i should probably tell them that sometime). i hate to turn to the bank of mommy and daddy, considering they are footing the bill for a majority of the wedding, but well, you can’t turn down help when it’s offered. i already contacted carsdirect.com and am working to get a hyundai santa fe. hopefully i will have a new car in the next couple of weeks. and i can finally get rid of the camry. *sniff* ah, she served me well. you can’t ask for more than 10 years and 150,000 miles. that car has lived on guam, california, arizona and delaware. it’s taken me around the island on guam countless times, gotten me to canada, gotten me to the bay area, gotten me to arizona, gotten me to a lot of places. wow. kinda sad that the car has to go, but well, we all have to move on to better things sometime. besides, i’m looking forward to the trunk space. and having a cool new car. and having four-wheel drive just in time for winter. woohoo.

okay, time to go to work. holy crap. i need a vacation, kind of. oh well.

(thinks to self: my life is okay. my life is okay. my life is okay. ah, screw it. my life is crazy. *sigh*)

stupid ass car.

do you ever have one of those days where you might as well get hit by lightning because that would probably be the most appropriate topper to your day? as if things couldn’t get worse?

*sigh*

i hate my car. now it’s overheating. i had to pull into concord high school because it was smoking so bad. luckily, i got a custodian to put water in my radiator. but the radiator’s shot. i know it. it’ll probably cost me more than a thousand bucks to fix. piece of shit car. i can’t afford a new one. but why should i fork that much money to fix the stupid car when i know the car isn’t even worth that much??? it’s a vicious cycle. and i can’t live without a car. grrrr. i really hate my lot in life. really. why can’t i be spoiled and rich and with $20,000 at my disposal so i can actually get myself to dance class, to work, to the friggin’ grocery store? dammit.

my day has been awful. and it just got worse. now, with just my luck, i’ll probably break my ankle during dance class……

so where’s that bolt of lightning again?

MY CAR IS A PIECE OF SHIT!

(sorry, i had to get that off my chest.)